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Sunday, December 2, 2012
Text from my brother......
You have crushed our mother's dream. This year she heard me defend both your's and Val's kids and grandkids when my oldest daughter was throwing around racial slurs and directing them at her cousins and their children. Which is the real reason she isn't talking to me, I am not a racist like she was raised to be. And what did mom get from you? She got your FB conversation with Adrianne, which you know what you said about me. Mom has not heard me say even 1 bad thing about you in 11 years, I understood her dream she had for her children, and now she has seen that you are the one that has completely crushed that dream, and that it truly wasn't me that has been the problem for all these years, it has always been you. All she wanted was for her kids to be able to get along. You doing this to mom is harder to forgive than what you tried to do to my life. She knew of what you said long before I did, I had been wondering why she went from always mentioning what you have been doing to the fact that she hasn't mentioned your name at all the last few weeks. I understand now. You tell everyone on FB how I am the one that can't face up to the things I have done wrong in my life, when in truth, its you that can't. I just hope that you are finally proud of what you have done to our mother, and I had nothing to do with this. Mom, Maggie, and Val knew of this since you put it on FB, and I was just told a couple days ago. The only thing that bothered me in the least is the fact that mom knew about it, and I know how this must hurt her, even if she doesn't show it.
Frank
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Frank
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I feel like I'm an orphan
Life has been so crazy the last few months and then I get a text from my brother, who hates me, telling me, again, that it's all my fault.....all my fault? I didn't disown him, he did it to me. My sister did also and my daughter. But why? There are others in my life who love me completely.....why is being true to myselfso threatening to them? What is it that they fear, or are jealous of? What makes them think that because they don't like who I am I should change? Yes, it hurts.....especially my daughter......the rest of them, no, they have never approved of me. Not my parents, I've never been who they approved of...since birth. I was never enough. In the delivery room after Kaliko's birth, she looks at me and says, " Laura, you were always so homely I never thought anyone would ever love you...look what you've done." Yup, that'svwhat I grew up with.....my siblings, they were better than me at everything, at least, that's what I was told...."why can't you be more like your sister?" Really??
I like being me! It took me 40 years to be able to say that and a few more to believe it. I don't need or want their approval or judgements. I'm done.......an orphan I will be. But I know I have been adopted by some that love me, not of my blood. I need not prove my worth to them. They believe in me. They love me. They accept me. The real me. I. Am. Enough.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Monday, October 1, 2012
Our beautiful Kaliko
She grows more beautiful, inside and out <3
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Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
I need to get out of my own head.....
There's been so much happening since the kids arrived.....School has started, Kaliko loves her teacher, so does LK......I've been working on a rocking chair I grabbed at goodwill for $5. I should have finished it weeks ago but I'm having problems getting moving, getting out of my own head, so to speak. None but my hubs knows that I've Bern suffering from PTSD.....I get frozen sometimes.....
Today is a beautiful day and I should be finishing my rocker.....applying the wax to protect it is all that's left. If I can get my phone to cooperate, which it hasn't done since it was updated, I will post pix of the entire project.......silly phone.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
Chaos Rules
Soooooo, it's been awhile since I've been here. We got everything ready for my son's arrival with his family :). My house is full, something that majesty me VERY happy! Kaliko is happy having her nieces here to entertain and play with. They arrived during the hottest weather we've had in years. Poor CC, this isn't like WA at all. Too hot to run outside, unless you wake really early or go after dark.
School starts in 6 wks, so Kaliko and I have to really start hitting
the books again. She made a new friend during softball that is also dyslexic and they are having more trouble with their school then we do. They can't even get their daughter tested because being only a tear behind in reading is not a good enough reason to test her-really??? Her father is dyslexic!!! He admitted to me that he doesn't challenge himself, doesn't do extra reading, stays in his "box" because it's too frustrating to try anything new......sad. The mom has been the one fighting with the school system. The simple fact that there is family history is reason enough to test. Hopefully, this year will be different. With all the changes our district has to go through because of a lawsuit at the federal level because they were violating the IDEA law.
I promise myself NOT too stay away so long next time :)
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Monday, April 30, 2012
my birthday
Last week was my birthday....not everything went as planned. Throughout the month, our plan was to do 'random acts of kindness', then my van died. Completely. So i didn't get to do all I had planned.
We squeezed in the important things we wanted to make sure of. I cut off my hair, donated it-a 14in ponytail was mailed to Pantene Beautiful Lengths. I went from long hair to a fun angled bob :)
Fun right?
We squeezed in the important things we wanted to make sure of. I cut off my hair, donated it-a 14in ponytail was mailed to Pantene Beautiful Lengths. I went from long hair to a fun angled bob :)
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